Five am Trust Issues

Sometimes

Even when you’ve spent years

Learning to control your tears

And you’ve spent time

Getting to know your mind

And you’ve spent hours frantic

Trying to control your panic

Even when you think you’ve got it figured out

It’ll all come back in a single bolt

And you’ll wake at five am

Without a single friend

Alone and afraid struggling to breathe

You feel hands holding you down on your knees

And your mind won’t stop this race

From memories you don’t want to face

And all the people who tried to help

Seem to just melt

I’m left alone with my demons

And these men don’t seem they were ever human

Have you ever had your trust taken?